There has been so much inspiration in my life over the past month. It has come in the form of a quote, a movie, an email or call from a loved one or acquaintance. Each time I’m convinced this will be the kick in the pants I need to get myself moving in the right direction. After all, there has been, confirmation from various sources encouraging me to travel down the same road which makes me believe much of this comes with God’s blessing.
Why then has writer’s and creativity block hounded me during all this time? Every day I think about writing. Then each night I go to bed unfulfilled because the well has been dry. I don’t know who is experiencing the bigger drought, the state of California or the state of Debra’s mind.
This I do know. Something has to be done to get this going again. This morning I sat at the kitchen table, my mind in a haze. Most days it’s hard to concentrate. I often feel that I’m in the midst of a dream and some days are worse than others. Today on a scale of 1-10, 10 being worse, it was a five. Somewhere in the middle of the day, the fog lifted and now just past midnight, my mind is suddenly clear and I’m not sure what to do with it.
I struggle with the thought of going to sleep because I don’t want this feeling to end, I’ve waited for it too long. Yet, I’ve been sitting here for the last 30-minutes trying to think of something, anything, to write about, culling through my pictures, hoping and praying that something I see will ignite that spark that keeps tugging at me.
Nothing. Then I opened my blog bookmarks and click on the following link that I haven’t clicked on since I added the URL to my bookmarks. It’s called Where Would We Be Without Words.
The eighth quote kicked me in the pants. Thankfully, my bottom isn’t where the brain freeze is located, even if there are some of you out there who would disagree. The quote is from Louis L’Amour. If you’re not familiar with him, he’s an author with numerous western novels to his credit. The quote is as follows: